Maroon Couch

so I guess I will sit down on it for a second.  Who am I kidding?  I’m ready to lie down and share now.  I need to warn you.  It’s been a while so this could be a little wordy!

Trust.  Depend.  “In God We Trust”, an easy claim that even a penny can make.  A penny that is tossed in a dixie cup upon receiving change for a cash transaction.  A round copper coin that you step on or over walking in the parking lot because it’s not worth much.  

A penny carries this statement as a Headline over Lincoln’s head.  Our currency reveals the claim of a country, or maybe our money reveals the true value of it’s worth.  ”In God We Trust” when we are in need and recognize an attempt to let God do something that we can’t do.  It’s out of my hands now and all I can do is trust, but all is not lost if the result is not what I want.

trust: a reliance on the integrity, strength, ability, surety of a person or thing; confidence.  Interesting.  I have total confidence in God and His ability.  I mean, He’s God and I find myself using the shift key more than normal when writing about Him.  I have more confidence in God than I do in my waiter to get my order correct when I say it.  

I trust God.  I feel like I always have.  For me, to trust is a moment.  It’s a question that begins something new and exciting.  ”Do you trust me?”  

depend: to rely; place trust; to be undetermined or pending.  I know trust and depend are so similar we blend the two together without thinking.  I’ve found that because I trust God, I rarely depend on Him.  For me, to depend is a moment that changes everything.   It’s out of my hands now and all I can do is trust, and if He doesn’t come through I don’t know what will happen next.  It’s a statement that could end something current or put it on hold.  “I’m depending on you.”  Maybe not all is lost but starting over may be the next option.   

In two weeks we will have been in San Diego for one year.  I know we are here because it’s all part of a plan.  A plan that is bigger than we are.  That doesn’t mean it’s been easy.  My one year lesson of life has been taking a faith from Trusting to Depending.  Maybe you’ve already learned this one.  As I finish this post up I realize it’s a lesson that isn’t learned, but a way of life I need to live.  

My response a year ago to someone who asks about something we’ve been praying for and need God to come through on, “We’re just trusting God.”  My response now to someone who asks about something we’ve been praying for and need God to come through on, “We’re totally depending on God.”  Not that He feels pressure, but if He doesn’t come through, it’s not going to happen.  

The miracles that happened throughout Scripture, took place with a Faith and a Belief on the part of the person NEEDING God to come through.  They trusted God for the healing or the miracle.  Maybe trust was used to think and know God could do something if He wanted to, but dependance on Him was the action that they used to stretch out their hand because everything was riding on Him.

So, I start this week depending on God.